I must admit

May 23, 2025

Entry 11:

Everyday I’m reminded of how alone I am . Ever knows that everyone has that one main friend that your always with . I don’t have one and the closest thing I had or thought was my best friend berated me on the day I needed him most . I see couple which it’s not like I’m jealous but like today , this boy looked so interested in this girl and I realized I never experienced someone having actual interest in me like that. Father daughter dances , I barely like talking to my father and other times he’s somewhere making false promises . Mothers that are so close with their daughters never really had that . These are just a few events that remind me off it . All I have is myself which is so overwhelming, nobody to talk to, no one to listen. I’m literally a background character. I feel like a failure everyone else are doing great things I barely do anything . What’s wrong with me . Why can’t I fit in. It’s like being put in a room by yourself with no way out . Every time I try to tag along I feel as if I’m being nuisance and or left out . I really wonder how does the experience of someone talking actual interest about you . My heart is so heavy and have no way the release the pressure. All I can do is cry I can’t take this any longer . What’s so wrong with me.